to HER. i never knew u will be such a good fren to me. but stil i warn u fers, dun be too close to me, as u had heard all those terrible stuffs abt me. i would not be a good fren. even if u are good to me who noes that 1 dae i might do terrible stuffs to u. im not saying that u cant be good to me. but de more u treat me that good, de more i felt guilty. i felt that u shud not be wid me. u have ur frens around that is even better then me, frens that u shud be more concern abt them. i told u all my stories, all my sadness, so do all that is happening around. u treated me too good. wad u did todae change a bit of my character. if everydae was like this, it will be de best. u are de oni person that makes me feel that could change my terrible character, change my idiotic attitude. if de world is without YOU, i tink that my attitude and character will be doom. lots of pple hated me, but whenever i ask u that if u blame me fer wad u did to u, ur ans would alwaes be no. whenever u ans that way, i feel so miserble, i feel that i shudden suspect u, i feel that i shudden tell u too much miserable things that happen to me, as telling u, u may feel bad for me, and that ur dae would be similar to me. i felt that i was bad, i felt guilty of wad i have did. i really really really wish that im not in this world, and de class would be in peace without me. and that without me i this world, u might felt happier. i gave u lots of trouble, and was aso disturbing u all de tym, i create nonsense that make u feel very vexed. i sae things that i shudden have said. mayb that my attitude really cant changeeeeeee. i really dunno wad to do. i felt guilty of wad i have did to u. i really dunno why im in this world for? really hope that everything can get bak to de past OR get everything settle now. but i tink it is too late. it was abt 3 months le. i really dunno wad can i do now. i felt so hopeless.
if u felt that getting along wid me was so miserble. plz tel me, i dun wan anybody to be like me anymore.

ahhhhhh~ wad happen to blogger har? cant do anything but posting. change fonts colour and alignment all aso cant. o.o wad de hell happen? anw, came here to blog, that din seem to be a task that i do mostly. -.- hahaz. todae was history. my god, my hand was painful enuff wonder if jinmei hand break ma. LOLs. cuz she wrote 12 pages, 6 papers la. wahhh. pro. she confirm can score lor. after exam mich kaili and me went to mac, ten saw zikun sherm huangyu and lyns. =) anw we waited til 11am so that de menu fer munch de is up cuz we dun wan to have breakfast. anw, we were toking abt ghosts? LOLs. after that we went to KFC, tink de air-con was spoil as very hot in dere. so we went to 7-11. ten we went to buy brain freeze drinks. i n mich shared de large wan. kaili bought de GIANT wan. LOLs. ten we wanted de lime. but it came out, "pok pok pok" de, tot i make spoil. LOLs. but put a little of cuz. ten we went to sit on de floor, drinking lor and aso toking abt familes and relatives how sad when they pass away. ten after that toking abt wad ghost movies and ghost tv shows de. LOLs. anw, quite interesting de, but they make me so afraid that i din even dare to go to toilet lehs. after that mich dunno wad happen tink she drank abit of de lime, ten her face change totally saying that was damn sour. LOLs. after that we were exchanging specs lurh. o.o sianx. mum call and wanted me to get hme immediately. -.- but we chatted quite long de la. from mac to 7-11, hmmm...around 4 hours. ten we went bak to hyss bus stop, but kaili wanted us to send ehr hme til de another bus stop. ten i sae if we play scizzors paper stone, if kaili won de 2 of us ten we walked her hme. if she loses 1, ten dun tink abt it. LOLs. ten she sae chances so low. ten i sae, ten dun play le lor. like dat chances din even have leh. so she sae okay lor. ten she sae we wid me fer, ten draw after that i lose!! ten mich turn lose too. LOLs. through this, though kaili has less chances in winning but she did won, after this i was thinking of sumthing, though chances were slim fer that thing but it was possible. haiz... dun wan mention le la. impossible de la. is not that chances slim anot, bcuz there were no chances given to me at all. forget it.. jus let me happy awhile lor. LOLs. so we went to de another bus stop lor. ten chatting on de way. toking abt mich and sum1. ten she sae wrong thing ten almost fell. LOLs. ten i sae dun bluff la, surely got sumthing between u 2. ten i almost fell aso. ten they laugh sae hahaz sae wrong things la. -.- anw reach de bus stop le, went to wait fer bus. ten board it lor. damn hot la. sun so bright no mood to study lit le lehs. nvm. after posting i go revise le... LOLs. tada. thing getting beta. haizz. dunno la.
but tmr will be beta. =))

byes~

to HER, HER, HER and HIM.
i adnit that everything i have did was wrong. all de fault lies wid me. it doesnt concerm anyone as if it wasnt fer me, this things would not have happen. to HER. i shudden have interfere ur frens relationship wid THEM. and aso ur life were create by god as wad HE has said, life is full of surprises. so u cant change ur life, u have to faced wadeva problems. me too have lots of problems too, but what can i do. to HER. i shudden have interfere ur relationship. i was jus an extra in all of ur heart. all that i did was wrong. even if de wrong was urs, it started wid me anw. to HIM. wad u said mayb rite. i mean it was jus too rite. it was neither HER nor HER fault. all dispute was started by me. i noe de whole class dislike me in de beginning le. i noe my attitude sucks. me too feel that but wad can i do. u sae u are an outsider but i dun tink so. nobody in 2e4 was an outsider, except fer me im jus being too extra. everything that we used to quarrel was my fault. all fault lies wid me. if i were to settle it will it be de same jus like last tym? i dun tink so...it was rather too late. not oni de class hated me, i know that others do. it was jus me in de beginning, n i jus cant do much. to HER again. that is ur relationship and i shudden have tel u to do this or that. i felt that it was my fault that u 2 became so further apart. it was jus my fault again. if it was not fer me, u 2 wun be like this. i was jus being to KPO, trying to help out u all.
to THEM aso. i have tried to talk to u all. but u all jus would not listen or care abt it. i apologise to u via sms de last tym. but u din treat me as a fren anymore. that was not my fault anymore i apologies, is jus that u nv gave me a chance to befrended u all again. but nvm. mayb it was my fault in de beginning to start a quarrel wid u all.
wo mei you xi wang ni men yuan liang wo. wo zhi shi xiang yao ni men ting wo shuo yao suo de yi qie.